He is Back

I hate and love the city street at the same time because you will never ever know who would you meet in the street. People bumping up one of each other, crowded but feels like you own the street. People that you might be avoid will be appear or people that you don't expect to meet will be appear. What a life ..........

I just met Pascal, on my way to the coffee shop. Gue pertamanya gak yakin kalau itu Pascal, but when he returns his back to me, OMG kill me now ! He stares at me with his brown eyes. His simply smile melting my silver heart. Gue salting, gue pengen balik badan bubar jalan tapi terlambat. Pascal udah ada di depan gue sambil narik tas laptop cantik yang gue jinjing. He says hi and hug me. Ni orang udah gila kali ya, ini public weyyyyyyyyyyy ! Gue bingung kok dia ada di KL. Dia bilang kalau dia postpone masternya buat satu tahun kerja ditempat kemaren dia practical. Hadeh .... another chapter with Pascal. Gue gak sanggup, I'm not fine, I'm in pain. Dia bilang dia mau balikan, dia nggak sanggup kalau musti putus apalagi putus hubungan sama sekali. Gue makin gak sanggup. Gue pengen nangis tapi gak bisa, hati gue udah kebal. Gak ada rasa apa-apa tapi somehow I miss him so much. I fall for him. I have lost him a lot but when he asks me to come back, I couldn't resist.

We walk down through the street to my apartment. I stayed in Ascott, daddy's property that he bought many years ago.

P: Seriously Ndro, Ascott ? *sambil geleng-geleng kepala*

A: Daddy's property, not mine. Besides I only have to pay the electric and water bills, I don't have to pay for the place.

P: Ndro, I want us back. I miss you.

A: I miss you too.

P: So kita balikan nih ?

A: Gue gak mau terburu-buru, kita jalanin pelan-pelan. I'm still in pain.

P: I'll heal your pain. Gue janji untuk jadi lebih baik lagi. You drive me crazy. I really miss us Ndro.

A: I told you, I want to take it slowly. I will consider it.

Sesampainya di apart, gue mulai nangis. Kenapa dia yang udah gue lupain dengan susah payah musti ngajakin balikan, kenapa dia musti ke KL, kenapa gue musti ketemuan sama dia, kenapa gue ga sekuat yang dulu. Gue nangis ngebelakangin dia. Pascal meluk gue dari belakang. He said sorry and ask for forgiveness. I am simply say yes and I return my body as my lips kiss his lips. Oh God, I miss him. That was 15 hot minutes french kiss. I release my tears. He's still the same Pascal that I used to know. Gently hold me to the bed. Hug me, kiss me, squeeze me, and touch me with all his passion at the same time. His perfume, cologne and sweat explode my mind. Yes, I have to admit that I miss us too. I miss him. I want him inside my body. I believe that we don't have any instruction to undress ourselves, I mean it really comes naturally to be naked and doing what people call slice of haven. I have to say that was really hot sex that I've never have in such a long time.

A: Do you want to stay over the night ? Memang lu sekarang tinggal dimana ?

P: Iya gue nginep ya malem ini, gue tinggal di Mont Kiara.

Gue pergi ke balcon sambil bakar rokok. Pascal ngikutin gue dari belakang terus sambil meluk gue. Kita menikmati pemandangan kota yang udah mulai gelap. Lampu kerlap-kerlip menambah suasana yang sentimental makin jadi sentimental. "lit one for me, I think I need one" he command me. We smoked and enjoyed the time. Is this my happy ending ? I'll never know. But I'm, again, with him now.